Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Wouldn't know hat to do with another chance, if you gave it to me...

I'm sitting here listening to Fiona apple, pissed off out of my mind.

2 men I considered friends abandonned me this week. Its really been fantastic all around. No, really, I mean it.

I spilled the full story to Angie tonight. Felt good to let it out to a sympathetic ear. I'm still moody and indecisive though. I try to shrug it off like it doesn't matter.

I still feel the sting of rejection. Why isn't my friendship enough for some people? Why does it have to be more? I guess really, the fact that they want more should be flattering, but the fact that they turn down contact at all with me because I won't be 'theirs' is reason enough to walk away with my head high. I won't be someone's property. I can't.

Out of sight out of mind I guess.

I feel full of rage and depression right now.

Why doesn't my happiness matter to my 'friends'?


Anonymous said...

Aw, well babe you'll always matter to me. Always, always, always!

You're great and you've got those rocks for a reason! Pelt those bastards! Pelt 'em!

Stacy Silver Clow said...

That's right! (Except my sons,)boys are dumb....throw rocks at them. Stick to the friends who stick to you.

Besides! It's all irrelevant now, isn't it!